10/8

 

Still alive but I'm barely breathing...

       So last night he told me that he had found someone new. Four days after he broke up with me the very night before my birthday, finally he admitted. This is after eight long years of being together. It wasn't just a sudden decision he made, I think. My heart is bleeding. My eyes are hurting. I couldn't sleep much at all. I can only sleep for an hour or two. I am usually awakened around 3 a.m. and I can no longer go back to sleep. It is so hard. I am exhausted. I am exhausted from going to work without enough sleep. I am physically and mentally drained from everything that is going on with my life. For now, this is all I can write. I'll just continue chasing sunsets...

Yeah, it's 3 AM... 💔